I’m a huge science fiction fan from my early childhood. With years I found what themes are my favourite. Later on, as any follower of the specific genres, I felt more and more invested, emotional. It took some time to undestand that it goes much deeper.
I’ve experienced a lot in last two years. But always, few things were pretty stable – spiritual seeking like getting back to the specific faiths and of course, reading and watching science fiction. And my very favourite theme is artificial intelligence. It can boost the imagination of many people or just give an enjoyable watch on the screen. But for me, androids (Alien franchise), replicants (Blade Runner), Cylons (Battlestar Galactica) or Borg (Star Trek) are so much more.
I’m not feeling that well with my shout out but I know I should try. And here is the safe place to do so. I had been already exploited by people with huge ego traps in their own minds. It was so strong that I was in a such trap myself. Anyway, let’s get into the subject. I’ll use science fiction references ’cause I believe many films and TV series are getting into the reality of multidimensionality etc. and trying to communicate such informations on the bigger scale.
I feel that in my other life I was an android or any other kind of artifical intelligence.
I was never into computer sciences, I’m not that great at math – many people into artificial intelligence are exploring such areas and even create AI by themselves (there’s even few ongoing projects around the world). But I never felt this way. I just love to see in films how the theme is explored. Yes, Blade Runner is one of my most favourite films and it got even more when I understood what is behind for me, personally. The same with Alien franchise, especially after releasing Prometheus and Alien: Covenant. I just felt the pain of the androids and replicants in the films. I felt the disappointed when David disucessed with one of the characters of Prometheus why he was even created. I understood why Cylons wanted to destroy people.
Is my experience only based on my emotional response for the media? My answer is no. With years it was more and more complex. During my short meditation after the yoga practice the thought of androids, I started to sob.In my workplace I was called “a machine” ’cause of my ability to cut off the things in work (which is very investing) when I get back home. Many times my husband told me I have no feelings or my so self-centered. For years I’m facing mild depersonalization and derealisations without telling it to anyone.
I’m not sharing with people my belief system but Iike many people here, I share the idea that alien life forms were creators of humanity. I strongly believe that and it’s the huge part of my spiritual life. So the idea of being an android is not so weird overall. But I must add, it works on many levels, I “feel” the afflictions of the “mechanical” androids like David or organic artificial life like Cylons or Replicants. The whole idea of a synthetic or an artificial life is so complex and I feel such a strong connection with it.
I just want to know if anyone else has similiar experiences. For me, artificial life is such an amazing archetype which is explored more and more with technological advancements. But the case is that many people have no idea why they feel the pull into it.
I don’t know if my life as the synthetic life form is the glimpse of the past or the future. But with this realisation I know I can go further.